It's like now I am no longer with the chemo, had no right to feel fear, or talk about it, yet I have, and I think it is time to accept it. In fact, in these lines (I think anyone read at all because of its extension), I'll try to face my fears and put names and surnames.
Although he denied it is clear that the main fear will always be able to lie, it's not something you're thinking all the time, has had some effect on me. I haverealize that since I said I was in remission, I behaved as if I lack the time, and somehow I think so. It's as if I had to seize every moment, and my brain could no longer function.
That has its good, since I've done many things during this time, but it is also true that accelerate both, leads sooner or later some emotional exhaustion.
It's like if you wanted the world and could eat everything, but no one is capable, as we all have our limitations. Including and especially the physical exhaustion that has never left me since I finished the whole treatment.
I've noticed, and something that I also sometimes generate a lot of anxiety, which often I can not keep pace with others. This can be in a ride just like a night out, or even during travel. I normally try to hide it, it's like to complain increased this weakness, but it is something that sometimes makes me a lot of damage emotionally.
At that moment I feel inferior, limited, and I thought that was my own subconscious that I generated this weariness, it was something psychological and not real. "I too am tired," "That's the heat," "Maybe if you did depga "macaroni" as in that movie ... sometimes you do not need anything else.
to see if I cheer up and keep writing these days. Big solutions for small evils ...
